When a Father Neglects

Searching for answers

Wondering how to be a man
You gaze longingly at an empty chair
Rocking back and forth
Where your father should have been
How to develop high character?
How to be strong mentally?
How to exhibit spiritual fortitude?
Where is he?
Invisible physically
Or maybe he’s there but can’t see your pain
A deeper connection is never ingrained
Because the football game is on
The baseball game is on
The basketball game is on
No time to spend with his son
Maybe your father never had a father
To teach him how to be a man
Displaying a lack of presence
A perpetual cycle of absence
A barren heart
Yearning to be nourished by a father’s words
Of wisdom
Of encouragement, instilling confidence
But all you see are the menacing clouds
Of anger and disappointment
Rain falls from bloodshot eyes
Onto a desert of loneliness
In hopes of growing through the pain
How to respect women?
No father around
You look to “friends” for unguided guidance
On how to exploit and abuse Feminine Energy
A pack of surrogate father-less fathers
Provides comfort in your emasculation
A lack of direction
Equals a mind divided
Immersed in psychological violence
Ripping you apart
Hating your father for not being there
For a lack of care
For not making you aware
Of the repressed man
Turbulently raging inside
Distraught and all alone
A neglected boy reluctantly walks
The path of a man on his own